The feelings I have keep burning, but it is not an emotional state. My life is full of enthusiasm at things in store for me. My problem is not my state of being in terms of what I can accept. It is not what it seems to be.
I have been brought into a different life because I live in altered states. The people I meet and involve myself have nothing to do with choices I make. In many ways my life is dictated by an entity which claims to be an angel. I had done nothing to invoke this being. It came before I was interested in witchcraft.
My interest in occultism is due to the strange experiences that I have had. I never intended to study witchcraft. It was not anything more than a novelty to me.
It was not the life I selected. Here I am in Atlanta, Georgia at a Left Hand Path Consortium surrounded by people interested in the occult, I have become enmeshed in a world which I never planned on being part of.
It was not what I had in mind for myself. The life I had envisioned would have involved visual art. I had a very different vision for myself. Nothing has turned out quite as planned.
The father of my child was not anything that I had made any attempt to attain. My angelic entity told me that it was to be a love thing. I only had an intention of creating music with him. He was not an occultist. I had determined that an occultist was the only sort of man I would be able to be with.
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