Abracadabra

There is a life ahead of me of which I am quite aware. My perspective has never been dismal, but many will not understand how hopeful I felt. My life was brimming with positivity before the occurrence had disrupted my state. My emotions became quite different from any I had experienced before. 

I never felt like it had to be a negative experience. I never felt particularly depressed. My feelings became like a foreign state intruding in on me. It was as though I felt everyone else's emotions. They took over my entire life. My own happiness became out of reach. I was taken over by this state. 

This state has continued to haunt me, yet very few people will understand what it is. It is constantly upsetting my time in life by making me feel other people's pain. This is all well if you want to think there is something good about it or a way to save the world. For me it will feel quite overwhelming and distract me from my own feelings. 

These days I try my best to keep my mind on my personal goals. People I have come in contact with occupy too much energy in my system. My moments which I wanted to enjoy are flooded out by unpleasant things. I can tell you that I want to move forward and not experience any of this. 

This feeling I am writing away. This feeling I translate into words. I become what I say. I become the words I write. Words have power and meaning. I wish to write the way out of all of this. I am finding my own solution to a psychic imposition.

These days are just beginning. I am banishing away all that doesn't serve me well. I am banishing it away. Banishing away. Banishing. Banished. Banish. Ban.