Guidance

My life continues forward as I experience unusual things. Tomorrow I leave for Atlanta. I am taking the baby on the bus with me. My friend is coming along to babysit. There will be many people in Atlanta who I will know. 

My life has become one dictated by a being who claims to be an angel. These days I make few decisions on my own it would seem. I am always forced to withstand a fierce pressure inside my heart. This pressure signals some very irritating psychic disturbances. For many years I did not know what to think. It has turned into a horrible battle. 

In my life I have immersed myself in occultism because it seems the only way to understand what I am going through. The situation with the baby's father is very alarming. It is one which I cannot sort out. For this reason I have decided to start this blog.

It is unpleasant to go through these harsh experiences continuously. My story had begun so many years ago. I began having mystical experiences after working with a book called The Artist's Way. 

I seemed to open up psychic abilities, but these abilities have caused chaos in my life. 

This life that I am living is one which is dictated mostly by an angel. There are times when the energy goes away long enough for me to actually enjoy my life. It was not the life I asked for. This life was not the one I expected. It has been rift with a pain which forces me to tune in to a psychic realm. 

I am experiencing things which are most peculiar. It has been this way for more than 15 years. My angel has told me that it is an Enochian angel. The other night I was describing some of the things the angel asks me to do to a woman who is part of the OTO. She said it sounded like an Enochian angel based on the behaviour. This angel will give me very specific information with regards to cleaning, diet, and other life tasks. 

This angel also makes me do substantial amounts of writing. Sometimes it will seem like utter jibberish. Other times it will seem brilliant. I have been going through so much with this experience. I can tell you about some of the things which have come true. This angel told me my mother had cancer and was not aware of it back when I moved back home to Brockville. 

These things are things that go on with me. My lifestyle can feel very isolating because I cannot relate to many of the people I talk to. It is only other occultists who would be able to appreciate some of these experiences. My ideas are not being clarified in several areas. There have been some very odd channeling sessions with information which I would say was not true. 

This is by no means any reason to dismiss the experience entirely. There have been so many positive changes with the guidance of this angel.