Conflicts and the Cold Shoulder

The reasons life has been this experience are not clear to Lydia at this point. She has been guided to a certain existence which seemed negative in so many ways. Many people have easier lives which are simple in many ways. Lydia has experienced feelings inside of a prolonged burning pain. This energy is the sense of anger in various people. Occasionally there is a relieving experience in this life. This has gone on for quite some time. It has been a mystery to Lydia's mind. We have been channeling different people through her body. Her consciousness has linked up to many things which have made her aware of certain people. These people are not always the most pleasant people to think of. 

It has been such an irritating experience for a person to have the pain of this anger stuck inside of them. There are many people who can be very annoying in life. It is challenging when the parent is very difficult. This is an experience which may interfere with life for many people in this world. The person who is intended to care for us is someone who has a lot of power over our world. 

Our parents can influence our way of looking at the world. Sometimes we do not recognize the things they bring into our life. We do not always understand what we are experiencing as children. Our parents can derail our entire life if they make us feel like our dreams are completely impossible. We know that parents have control over our lives. They can determine the things we eat much of the time. They can determine the things we watch on TV. They control so many things about our life in childhood. Sometimes many people can get off to a very difficult start. 

There is a mother in Lydia's life who is challenging to say the least. Lydia's mother is someone who has many problems which have contributed to her life. Her mother is not always a kind parent. It can be difficult to cope with all of this. Sometimes we tolerate people who hurt us. Some people rebel or fight back. This has been a challenging experience in Lydia's life to have this horrible sense of a foreign anger energy constantly burning in her heart. 

There will be some changes occurring over the next little while. It is not easy to talk about death at all. It is not easy to talk about things which can happen in the future. We know that death often occurs in August in Lydia's family. There were many deaths around this time of the year in the past. Aunt Ruth and Lydia's grandmother died on the same year in August on Different years. Her Uncle Bill died a day later just about 9 years ago. 

Death happens sometimes in a family. Families experience things like death a lot in this world. Death is a universal form of loss for people. Many people have trouble coping with the loss of a family member. Many people have depression after the death of a loved one. Many people will experience sorrow at the death of a parent. 

Lydia knows that her mother has been very hurtful. It has been a challenge to deal with the variety of guilt that Lydia's mom enjoys inflicting on her. These things make life a lot less pleasant to experience. Nobody wants to be accused of being capable of murder. Nobody wants to deal with a hurtful parent who turns the tables all of the time. This parent is really not kind or loving. She acts like it is Lydia who is hurting her. Her expectations of her daughter are unreasonable. This would make the relationship challenging for a very long time. Life is changing dramatically. Life is changing all of the time. 

There is Leota who is Lydia's daughter. She was born just a year ago almost. In less than a month it will be Leota's first birthday. This is something which is coming up. 

Lydia's mother has been giving Lydia the cold shoulder for a few weeks because of some conflicts which recently occurred.