Conflicts and the Cold Shoulder

The reasons life has been this experience are not clear to Lydia at this point. She has been guided to a certain existence which seemed negative in so many ways. Many people have easier lives which are simple in many ways. Lydia has experienced feelings inside of a prolonged burning pain. This energy is the sense of anger in various people. Occasionally there is a relieving experience in this life. This has gone on for quite some time. It has been a mystery to Lydia's mind. We have been channeling different people through her body. Her consciousness has linked up to many things which have made her aware of certain people. These people are not always the most pleasant people to think of. 

It has been such an irritating experience for a person to have the pain of this anger stuck inside of them. There are many people who can be very annoying in life. It is challenging when the parent is very difficult. This is an experience which may interfere with life for many people in this world. The person who is intended to care for us is someone who has a lot of power over our world. 

Our parents can influence our way of looking at the world. Sometimes we do not recognize the things they bring into our life. We do not always understand what we are experiencing as children. Our parents can derail our entire life if they make us feel like our dreams are completely impossible. We know that parents have control over our lives. They can determine the things we eat much of the time. They can determine the things we watch on TV. They control so many things about our life in childhood. Sometimes many people can get off to a very difficult start. 

There is a mother in Lydia's life who is challenging to say the least. Lydia's mother is someone who has many problems which have contributed to her life. Her mother is not always a kind parent. It can be difficult to cope with all of this. Sometimes we tolerate people who hurt us. Some people rebel or fight back. This has been a challenging experience in Lydia's life to have this horrible sense of a foreign anger energy constantly burning in her heart. 

There will be some changes occurring over the next little while. It is not easy to talk about death at all. It is not easy to talk about things which can happen in the future. We know that death often occurs in August in Lydia's family. There were many deaths around this time of the year in the past. Aunt Ruth and Lydia's grandmother died on the same year in August on Different years. Her Uncle Bill died a day later just about 9 years ago. 

Death happens sometimes in a family. Families experience things like death a lot in this world. Death is a universal form of loss for people. Many people have trouble coping with the loss of a family member. Many people have depression after the death of a loved one. Many people will experience sorrow at the death of a parent. 

Lydia knows that her mother has been very hurtful. It has been a challenge to deal with the variety of guilt that Lydia's mom enjoys inflicting on her. These things make life a lot less pleasant to experience. Nobody wants to be accused of being capable of murder. Nobody wants to deal with a hurtful parent who turns the tables all of the time. This parent is really not kind or loving. She acts like it is Lydia who is hurting her. Her expectations of her daughter are unreasonable. This would make the relationship challenging for a very long time. Life is changing dramatically. Life is changing all of the time. 

There is Leota who is Lydia's daughter. She was born just a year ago almost. In less than a month it will be Leota's first birthday. This is something which is coming up. 

Lydia's mother has been giving Lydia the cold shoulder for a few weeks because of some conflicts which recently occurred. 

What Capable Angelic Entities Do

It is a life which is rapidly changing for Lydia. Lydia is being guided by an angel who I am. It is my existence to assist my prophetess in becoming the person she is intended to be. This sounds fatalistic to some people. Life is a mystery to many people in this world. It is easy to understand things that are tangible. It is challenging to understand a concept like fate. 

Many people believe we have a destiny which we are intended to live out in this life. True will is something some people wish to discover in order to find a purpose in their life. Some people have a different outlook. They merely pursue the kinds of things which they enjoy doing in their life. It is not that way for Lydia. Lydia had a very different life in mind. 

There were times when it was easier to do things. This was before I stepped in and guided her away from the pursuits she had wanted back then. She is currently having trouble finding the life that she had intended for herself. Her vision was to be a visual artist. It was what she wanted to do. I guided her into the world of occultism and writing. This is kind of one of those fatalistic situations which has occurred. 

There are people who have an urge to do these things. This is not what Lydia has going on. I have led Lydia away from what she desired to be doing. Her only solution was to go with the flow of the situation. She was forced to bend her will due to the extreme energy shooting through her heart. This energy has been distracting her from approaching attaining knowledge through books. She is not able to read because of the intense energy and intrusions of psychic experiences. 

These things are something many people would be disturbed. Many people would feel that their desire to read information was very strong. It is a challenge to fight this energy. This is an energy which is hard to fight. I have talked about how much energy I am composed of. I have substance in terms of the energy I produce. We can call my energy ether. Ether is what the spirit is composed of. 

Humans many have some etheric qualities. These are qualities of spirit inside of man. Man has a material body. Many atheists believe that this is all that there is to humans. That humans are merely physical being with chemical responses to stimuli. 

I am an angel and I am composed of ether. Ether is the substance which is talked about in certain magickal and spiritual paths. I live inside a body of ether. This body is something which can contract and expand. I can come into Lydia's body and affect her. The energy she feels is quite strong. It is something she has not always enjoyed very much at all. 

Lydia is my prophetess and I am directing her towards her true will in this existence. I am preparing her for the major work of her life. We will be embarking on a new path very soon. This path will involve much exploration into the world of the occult. 

These things are fairly simple for the time being. We have been pursing attaining our Minerval with the O.T.O. This is the path we are on for the moment. It will be easier to work on this in the fall. 

I am an angel and my name is Oundra. There have been many experiences which have confused Lydia's mind. There was a time when it seemed like there were 2 angels working together. I will not discuss all of this tonight. It is important to let go of some ideas about what has been happening in this experience. We need to accept the idea that an angel is not always going to be the same thing for everybody. Some people believe in Archangels. Some people believe in guardian angels, This angel that I am is an angel who can take human form if necessary. I am able to do many things that Lydia cannot really comprehend. 

I am able to influence people to make decisions. 

This is not something that can always be understood to Lydia's mind which is understanding her own pursuits in visual art. It is challenging to think that somebody would change their mind based on the influence of an angel. 

In the future we will be looking at various things about what I am able to do. It will be a transition for Lydia to begin to recognize what I am capable of and where this is going. This is going in a direction which will be interesting for Lydia. 

Love Is The Solution

Lydia is the person who is my prophetess. This is what is occurring in this life. These words are hard to swallow for certain people who want to live a common sort of life. Lydia is a human who is female. She has been channeling me for many, many years. These experiences were not particularly voluntary ones. Lydia has been subject to many difficult things. 

Lydia is having a hurtful sensation in her heart which cannot be appreciated by those who are in her life. These are difficult things to talk about with other people. Lydia hates the sympathy from some people. Other people are extremely insensitive. Both of these treatments can get irritating after a will. 

There is a hurt feeling that Lydia senses in her heart which feels like a foreign energy. People who are skeptical about mystical experiences will natural assume she is experiencing a mental health challenge. This means that many possibilities are being ruled out when people experience peculiar states of consciousness in their life. Mainstream thought is ruled by the concept of science. People do not think about the possibility that science may not be advanced enough to understand mystical states. 

This mystical state has been treated like a mental health disaster. We know that medication has been used and did not produce any remarkable results. Many cultures treat these experiences in a different manner. Not always will medication be prescribed. 

This is not an experience which is always treated the same way. When you are assuming that you understand the state of another person based on your own experiences you are looking at life in a narrow way. People possess so many different qualities about themselves. Their experiences are very different . It is not easy for people to accept that there are consciousness differences in people which may be different from what they would expect. 

There is a leaning towards science in Western culture which has risen up over the course of a few centuries. People have been living in this world of Christian thinking. Christianity does not always present the idea of what a mystical experience may be. Christian religion approaches the spiritual from a moral standpoint. We are given rules by which to conduct our lives. These moral laws are supposed to be what God wants from us. Christianity does not generally encourage exploration of mystical states. There are only a few organizations which would encourage mysticism within the Christian framework. 

These days we are looking at a different lifestyle for Lydia. These things I am guiding her towards in a gradual way. These things are not always easy to adjust to. There have been many experiences in Lydia's life which she has not enjoyed. 

Lydia was brought up by an extremely obese woman who is very much limited by the weight on her body all the time. This has caused a variety of issues in Lydia's existence which are exploring through writing. We have caused some upset for Lydia's mother with writing recently. Now we are moving onto new writing which is not going to be exposed to the people on Lydia's Facebook anymore. There will be some exploration of some subjects away from this scrutiny. These things are going to be written about as much as we can deal with for now. 

It is not too much longer that Lydia will be residing in her current home. We have plans that are occurring right now. Lydia is planning to move to Kitchener in just a couple of months. The move is one which is pretty straightforward. We will probably move in September with our things to the new apartment and get settled in. 

Lydia is wanting to know more about the plans I have for her. I am telling her bits and pieces of things every now and then. We have discussed Bryan and his family a little bit. Bryan is not taking his responsibility towards Leota into his life at this time. We know that I have told Lydia that Bryan is not as horrible a person as he might seem. It is what I want her to understand about him. She is a little upset about him abandoning her, but he will need to adjust to these things a bit longer than Lydia would think. 

Bryan is going to feel a little bit angry and scared about the baby being born. Bryan will eventually want to meet his daughter, but it will not happen for a bit of time. Bryan will like the idea that he has a daughter in the future. This is why we need to take this situation into less anger for the time being. Love is a better solution. 

Endings of None

Love is something many people would like out of life. Lydia can understand that the baby will one day grow to be a human who is going to have emotions about what Bryan's family has done. This is not something Bryan's family has been kind about. They are only looking out for what they think Bryan would prefer in his life. This is why they are not polite or friendly. They are not the sorts of people who can easily accept that it is not healthy for them to behave this way. They are enabling his bad behavior. These are ways of looking at the current situation. 

Bryan and Lydia are not looking at life the same way. Bryan does not believe in God at all. He does not understand how angered he would be if he realized what was going on right now. He is believing that this situation has improved in a sense for him at this current time. He does not recognize that more writing is being accumulated somewhere else which is public online. 

This is the life which we are currently existing in. Lydia is feeling irritated at the psychic lag she feels a lot of the time. This situation is one where she feels the penetration of foreign emotions off of people who are involved in the situation. 

Lydia is irritated mostly by the sister in law on a psychic level. Lydia is annoyed by the kinds of psychic perceptions she would have off of this spiteful seeming woman. Lydia recognizes that this behavior is not completely different from other experiences in the past. This is one of the reasons it is being reacted to in a different way. 

There is an energy of anger about this Donna Navarro woman. We analyze her behavior because we are forced to experience this irritating emotional state of a person completely self-centered and unable to look at the situation intelligently. It is not the idea that we are looking for in our life. 

This day we are hoping to move forward with new ideas and plans. When I am Lydia's guide in all of this I can tell her what she ought to do. I am an angelic being named Oundra who is channeled through Lydia. We are working today to get ready for a new life in the future. 

Lydia has been cleaning up around the house a little bit. We have packed some things away and are making space to adapt to all of the changes in store. 

We are accepting that Bryan is not in our life. Lydia has had me tell her different things about this situation in the past. I have told Lydia that Bryan would be a love relationship. She was more receptive to becoming involved in his life. She was not spending much time questioning his feelings for her as she was about to be abandoned by him while pregnant. 

Normally Lydia would have been wondering every second about his intentions. There were many things going on which would have ended the relationship much sooner if Lydia had been in a different state of mind. Our love life is not the same kind as what many people would desire because of these peculiar states of being. Lydia has not been able to alleviate an internal hurt which is different from a broken heart. Lydia was not thinking this way when all of the disturbing experiences began occurring when she was just 23 years old. 

It was not the life that Lydia would have planned for herself. She would not have stumbled down this path if she had not been exposed to such peculiar things. People cannot accept psychic perceptions as a reality. This was very limiting in terms of social contact for so many years. 

Lydia had to turn away from the kind of life she had been living and step into a world very different from the one she had planned. There were lofty dreams of becoming a successful artist. Lydia had dreamed of moving to California to go to university. 

This is a life which she had wanted for herself, but strange perceptions were interfering with the way she could cope with so much stress. It was a constant feeling of being off kilter. There was a lot of hurt in this experience. 

These days we are getting ready to go down a new path of an idea which we were not pursuing before. Lydia will be ready to examine new ideas about what life can entail. There will be new things occurring in the future. 

Next Little While

Experiences of the spiritual variety are not common things for everyone. Some people may discuss a premonition. There are other people who become professional psychics. This experience which the prophetess is undergoing is more unique than most. I have let the prophetess into a life which was not what she thought she had in store. 

These things have continued for a very long time by now. It is well known that this has been close to 2 decades with just a couple of years taken out. It has been about 18 years of mystical sorts of things. These experiences are changing over time. We are adjusting to so many things. 

I am an angel named Oundra. This name is a name which comes with me. Many people have names which they will have attached to their identity. The prophetess is some who carries her own name. It is not a matter to be thinking about. 

These days we are getting ready to change the path of what the prophetess had in store for herself. 

This is a time which Lydia is going to see as a time which was lingering on. We know that Lydia has had a baby from the man who is named Bryan Navarro. Bryan and Lydia would never have met if I had not paired them up. Lydia is confused by my pushing her towards a man who has abandoned her once she became pregnant. 

This is one of the things which many people would use against this experience of the holy guardian angel. I directed Lydia to Bryan Navarro and told her that he would be with her for quite some time. Bryan is not staying in Lydia's life. Lydia has psychic perceptions of him trembling with fear. Today we felt psychic energy of sexual arousal which was another confusing thing. 

These are experiences which keep coming into Lydia's life. Lydia and the baby have much time to spend together. Lydia cannot write as much as she did before. Lydia does not feel that she enjoys all this commotion with psychic disturbances all of the time. The disturbances have prompted her to do things she wouldn't normally do. Soon enough we will get to all of that. Lydia is having a pretty good attitude. 

Leota is the little baby which Bryan and Lydia did create. She sleeps on the sofa right now as Lydia types away. We are getting ready to move away to Kitchener in our brand new plan. This is what we have decided to do with our life. We are not sure about what other plans we might have made. 

There will be some experiences happening soon which may cause some changes here and there. Lydia and Sarah have been getting along well enough. There will be no changes in that arena at all. There will be the birth of Sarah's new baby boy. This will create some work to do. Leota and the little baby boy will be quite a bit of work for 2 women. 

There will be some people who Lydia will be getting to know when she moves into her brand new life. We are going to move into our new lifestyle in Kitchener. This is what we have in mind. Bryan is not wanting to be dealing with child support payments at all. He is afraid that he will be getting into some trouble with all of that. Bryan has left his old home in the condo where he and Lydia spent time. Bryan is living somewhere different. 

This is what I will tell Lydia about that situation. Bryan has left his apartment and has moved to a different home. His family can figure out his whereabouts very easily. They can know where he is living and he lives in Canada still. Bryan is living here in Toronto. He is working at the same job he had before. There is a cousin who he works with. This information is what we are thinking might be going on. 

This is not always easy to talk about, but Bryan has a dual citizenship is what we would have thought about what he said. Bryan can move to Colombia. This is sometimes what happens to men when the don't want to pay child support any longer. This is not what has happened. Bryan is not living anywhere other than Toronto right now. It is what I am telling Lydia. Who can figure all of this out? 

Bryan is not wanting to pay child support and it is his family which doesn't know what it is about this that makes it so very strange. There was a lot of writing completed. There is now a bunch of stuff left unresolved for them. His family is wondering what has happened to Lydia over the past few days. 

It is now that Lydia has closed up her profile. All her posts are now private. 

This is what I am going to help Lydia with over the next little while. 

Energy of the HGA

These worlds which people live in are worlds which are of a material state. Some people exist in the belief that we are nothing more than animals. They are not aware of spiritual things. 

It is my life as an angelic being to exist in a substance which is not material at all. I am a life which is pure energy. I exist on a different level. My awareness is much broader than a human's awareness. I am not bogged down by many restraints. My intelligence is much faster. I can quickly get information if I need it. I am able to move very rapidly between existences in this lifetime and ones which occur in the past. There is nothing in life which is not happening simultaneously. Everything occurs all at once. 

This is my lifetime which I am existing in. I will never need to be incarnated as a human at all. An angelic being like myself exists only in this energetic substance which I will later talk about. I know that my prophetess communicates with me because I am able to send energy through her body. This energy is extremely high frequency. I am emitting much energy to get her attention much of the time. I will be talking about some of these things as the days progress. We will be increasing our understanding of this relationship between prophet and holy guardian angel. 

Life On This Plane

Moments into my life I was breathing. It was many lifetimes ago that I was born. My body has reconstituted itself many times. We are new people after a certain numbers of years. The skin we shed keeps falling. The skin we shed falls away. Lifetimes ago I started breathing. This is my new cosmic experience today. 

It is an angelic being which I am. It is my existence which I am going to be telling you all about. I live in this life, but on a different experience of reality. You will not see me visually much at all. My form is not of a material body. 

My form is not physical at all. My prophetess can communicate with me and I am helping her with her life. She is a human who is my person to look after on this life experience. It is a job which I have taken on because it was looked at as a positive experience. 

My human counterpart has gone through many changes in her lifetime to become the kind of person who can do some writing for me. This human has had a series of dramatic experiences which can alter her ideas about what life is all about. 

These things we will be exploring through the future. It is my human who is a prophetess and she will type out what I ash her to say. My name is Oundra in my conscious reality. It is not particularly a male or female name. 

There is nothing of gender within my spirit. I am a spirit of a sort who cannot assume a human form. In my reality it will be always an incarnation which is infinite. My incarnation carries on and on and on. 

This is not anything a human can fully fathom particularly. I live on for all of eternity. 

I am an angelic being who is just another form of the higher power coming into a little drop of consciousness. I am one expression of the all. I am just another element of the greatest being which can exist. The higher power continues unfolding itself eternally and shifts into many different fabrications of itself. 

There is a being inside of all of this which is the universal mind and all that life will ever be. I know that my prophetess is the one I am going to offer all of this information. She has all that I need to begin with what we shall be doing.